I guess I should let you in on a bit of a secret. I have a pretty severe social anxiety disorder coupled with clinical depression that I barely manage with some anti-depressants and a tranquilizer. My old anti-depressant wasn't really working well and I was switched to a new anti-depressant a few months ago which allowed me to spend more time out but also dampened my libido.
So still scared of getting an outside job, I decided that I should put my writing skills to work and write a book - kind of Twilight meets 50 shades. Yeah, stupid me, everyone else was writing books. I was starting to get the impression that there were more writers than readers. My book flopped... horribly. Well I thought I'd leave up my current book and play around with a new one but I was getting pressure... pretty intense pressure... to give it up and get a regular job like any non-loser.
I guess I kept up the empty hope of selling both books when I got 'the review'. Yes, all the places I submitted my book and I FINALLY got a review almost 2 months later. Problem is... 2 1/2 stars and plenty of complaining about how bad I was. Really? I never saw that before in even the most illiterate garbage up on Amazon. I must really suck. Okay... I can't leave up a book with only 2 reviews (thanks Jerrie), one at a 2 1/2 so I unpublished. Everything was over. My website was taken down, my Facebook, my book everywhere unpublished. I was done.
I don't know whether you guys picked up on it but I was done. I was completely done and I just didn't even want to be around anymore. I realized that I had left one thing unfinished. I needed to finish helping a friend here. I stuck around and helped him until he didn't need me anymore.
Okay, I've enjoyed my time with you guys and you've all been nothing but nice to me. I really need to be alone now but maybe, when I feel better, I'll be back. - Nothing but love - Nikki
Read what you wrote and recognizes me, has also föfratar dreams and skickart into two books in the publishing house but they were not interested. has gone on to become series teknare rather hope they go Batter. If you want support and you are welcome to write to me.
Hello Nikki, nice to see you here on this site. I love your fetish and favorite fantasy description, and I'm sure you'll find plenty of folks around here to oblige you. This is were I keep my art gallery, check it out if you get the chance. ^_^
DxC Night, insidious night Stretching your mighty claws Through eerie floodlights Sight, oh hideous sight And such a putrid smell A glance into black hell Light, mysterious light Shadow eyes haunting me Feeding on my sanity.